I used to get annoyed by terms like self-love and self-compassion.
They seemed like a shallow blend of new-age nonsense and useless self-indulgence. I mean, really, self-love?!
But then a funny thing happened that completely changed my mind: I started writing about self-improvement…
The gaping hole at the heart of self-improvement
I started blogging in 2017. My goal was to take the best ideas and techniques that I used in my work as a psychologist and show how they could be useful beyond the therapy office for anyone who wanted to work on personal growth and development.
As I started writing about how to use psychology to improve our mental health and achieve our goals, I quickly found myself immersed in the world of self-improvement.
At first, it was exciting:
- Motivating articles about getting up super early to work on your passion
- How to throw off your deepest insecurities and take on the world
- Brilliant techniques to build new habits and break down bad ones
- You know the stuff I’m talking about…
But pretty quickly, I started to sense that something was a little bit off inside the exciting wonderland of self-improvement. The whole change your life in 5 simple steps culture was starting to feel a little… sleazy? The longer I read this stuff the more I felt like I was hanging out at a used car dealership or a multi-level marketing seminar.
The surface was shiny and exciting, but the core seemed hollow, if not rotten:
- Lots of simplistic I did it and so can you
- Plenty of motivational quotes from inspiring celebrities, but not much in terms of nuts-and-bolts technique.
- An almost complete avoidance of the obstacles and barriers that make real improvements difficult.
- A pervasive ignorance to the contextual and environmental factors that influence improvement, wellbeing, and success (read: privilege).
- But the most insidious part of all: The implication that you’re not good enough the way you are.
The paradoxical problem with so many of the well-intentioned self-improvement articles out there — including some of my own — is that they end up invalidating the core ingredient required for genuine and lasting self-improvement: Self-compassion.
What’s self-compassion got to do with self-improvement?
In my own work as a therapist, I see people’s best intentions and plans for improvement fall victim to the same problem: They can’t sustain their progress, in large part because they lack self-compassion.
Here’s an example:
A young client of mine — we’ll call him Sam — was a brilliant third year college student studying pre-med. At 20 years old, the kid had never gotten less than an A in his life and was on a full ride to one of the most prestigious schools in the country.
On top of his intellectual prowess, he was also an incredibly diligent and hard-working student. Sam told me about his reputation for being the hardest working kid in his school because he could always be found somewhere around campus studying — early mornings, nights, weekends, even holidays.
But there was a problem… crippling anxiety, procrastination, and emerging depression. What no one else saw about this young paragon of intellect and achievement was that he was burning out quickly.
All that extra studying and hard work actually had nothing to do with getting ahead and everything to do with staying afloat. He spent long hours in the library studying because he experienced so much anxiety and procrastination that it took him three times as long to do the work all his classmates were doing.
After only a few sessions it was clear to me why Sam, with all his gifts, talents, and motivation was in serious danger of really crashing: He was awful to himself.
Growing up in a cold, rigidly achievement-oriented family, Sam had internalized an intensely negative and judgmental way of talking to himself. He berated himself constantly in his own mind for being too weak, not working hard enough, and pretending to be more than he was.
And while this fear/shame-based drill-sergeant motivational strategy had worked to a point, it was destroying him now.
The paradox of self-improvement
Sam had spent his whole life obsessively focused on self-improvement, especially academically. But now he was being crushed under the weight of his own aspirations because he had no core of self-confidence, self-compassion, or self-love to stand on. His narrow pursuit of academic success left him no time to discover his own interests, joys, passions, or values.
Sam is a perfect, if extreme, example of the central paradox of self-improvement:
Spend too much time focused solely on improvement and you lose the self. And without a solid sense of self, all steps toward improvement are bound to collapse eventually.
Because no matter how brilliant or talented you are, you will stumble, screw up, and fail at some point. And your capacity to bounce back and persevere has little to do with your technical skills and intellectual powers, and everything to do with your sense of self-worth.
To be resilient, you must cultivate self-compassion
Think about the best mentors you’ve ever had in your life, anyone who’s helped you grow — could be parents, grandparents, teachers, coaches, counselors, even good friends.
What they all likely have in common in their approach to helping you grow and succeed is a balance of acceptance and challenge. In other words, they’re simultaneously supportive and accepting, but also challenging and stimulating. They meet you where you are and help push you to where you want to go.
If we’re surrounded by people like this from a young age, we internalize that balance of self-acceptance and compassion along with achievement and challenge. This gives us the tools to strive and move forward toward our goals and dreams, as well as the resilience to pick ourselves up and bounce back after setbacks.
This becomes increasingly important as we get older and life gets more complicated and stressful and we learn more and more that setbacks are inevitable. We learn that talent and desire are not enough to achieve our goals — we need resilience and perseverance as well.
But many of us didn’t have people in our early lives who gave us a template for how to be compassionate with ourselves. In fact, they probably taught us the opposite: that to achieve great things and stay motivated, you need to be tough on yourself. Which is why so many of us have such harsh inner self-talk — we think we need it to stay motivated.
But what if that’s not true? What if you are able to stay motivated, productive, and achieve great things despite your harsh inner voice and self-view, not because of it? What if your drill sergeant inner narrator is sabotaging your happiness and resilience to adversity without actually giving any benefit in exchange? What if the medicine is all side effect and no benefit?
The only sustainable path to achievement and happiness is to cultivate self-compassion
I had an old mentor and supervisor whose favorite line was:
Falling off the wagon isn’t the problem; it’s the rolling around in the mud that gets us.
In other words, setbacks are inevitable. But they’re not the problem. It’s how we respond to them that defines us and determines our future.
Unfortunately, many of us have been trained over years to believe that we must be harsh with ourselves to stay motivated and achieve our goals and happiness in life. But this harsh, judgmental self-view is exactly the thing that causes us to fail:
- Cheating on your diet with that bowl of ice-cream after dinner isn’t the problem. It’s all the self-recrimination, guilt-tripping, and shit-talking you do to yourself after that leads to giving up on the diet.
- Missing a workout one day because you’re exhausted after work isn’t the problem. It’s that you berate yourself for being weak and inconsistent that deflates you and saps you of motivation and energy to get back at it tomorrow.
It’s a truism in the self-improvement world that consistency is king. That the key to achieving your goals and finding success in any area mostly comes down to persevering, day-in and day-out, month after month, year after year.
And I think this is largely true. But the biggest obstacle to consistency is ourselves; in particular, how harsh and judgmental we are with ourselves after setbacks.
We end up failing at our goals because we convince ourselves that we’re failures any time we stumble. @ndwignall (Click to Tweet!)
Of course, 95 percent of diets fail! Of course, 92 percent of gym memberships go inactive after a month!
The good news is, there’s a relatively easy fix to this quandary we all find ourselves in: Don’t talk to yourself in a way you wouldn’t tolerate from others.
Really, you’ll be amazed at what you’re capable of when you simply remove the burden of judgmentalness and self-criticism. You don’t need to add anything. You’re good. Just stop telling yourself you aren’t.
One of my favorite writers, James Clear, has a simple rule for himself for staying consistent and being successful in any area he’s working at, from weight lifting to writing: Never miss twice.
I love this because it implies that missing, and perhaps even frequently missing, is inevitable but not really a big deal. As long as you don’t make too much of your misses, you’ll end up winning in the long run.
All you need to know
I believe self-improvement is a noble pursuit. Whether it’s losing weight, learning Mandarin, or starting a blog, the desire to be better and grow is a wonderful thing.
But genuine, lasting growth can only be built on a foundation of gentleness and compassion.
So, even if “love yourself” seems a bit much, simply try to be a little nicer to yourself, especially when you’re pursuing something challenging and meaningful.
- Setbacks are inevitable and normal. It’s how we respond to them that matters.
- Don’t roll around in the mud. Remind yourself that wagons are bumpy beasts and hop back on.
- Never miss twice. The best way to stay consistent with progress is to be gentle with yourself during setbacks.
- Talk to yourself like you’d talk to a friend. Push yourself to succeed, but be encouraging when you slip up.
You’re good. Sure, you’ve got baggage, weaknesses, things you regret and areas for improvement. But deep down, you’re good.
Get in the habit of reminding yourself of that and you’ll have learned the biggest self-improvement hack there is.
* Originally published at nickwignall.com.
Thanks to Maarten van Doorn and Lauren Reiff.
Nick Wignall is a clinical psychologist and writer interested in practical psychology for meaningful personal growth. You can find more of his writing at NickWignall.com.
Image courtesy of Franciele Cunha.