Never did I know my own song
never did I know you were so wrong
fighting myself every day and night
just to never feel alright
you held me back more than you ever helped and that’s a fact the best thing I did, was realize you are not healthy
You are not willing
You will keep killing
this beautiful girl that’s now healing
it’s easier to write
when the truth is on my side
when I opened my eyes
tears came falling..screams went yelling and now my story I am telling
I say no to you
I say no to you
I am freer than I have ever been today seeing you that way
28 years
and little did I know you have been the cause of my tears then you wipe them up like Its not real
ask me how I feel
just to gain ammunition what’s your deal
oh ya you’re sick
but you’ll never believe this so I walk away
I have no choice, and honestly there isn’t another way used to stay up and pray
that maybe the god you believed in
could help you see what you do
that was before I knew
that you use him just like you do all the things you put your energy into.. I am happy to know you don’t really care
cause that means the way you hurt
It’s coming from elsewhere
I’m protecting this little girl
the one who was scared of the world
you taught her to hide but now I’ve never felt more alive..
freeing myself from the damage you’ve done will take some time, but no I will not run
I see it now
and damn I am mourning the loss of a father who lives under the same sun
And from me to the person reading this…
Please know that you deserve unconditional love. Please know you don’t have to be any certain way in order to be good enough. It is not easy coming to terms with the fact that the person you love is not good for you, or that you were abused but taught it was normal. Reach out. I promise there are people out there who care about you. Who TRULY care about you.
Em Garcia
Em Garcia is a Hip Hop Artist and Writer. She is a growth seeker and believes kindness can change the world. She believes in everything and everyone. Honesty within yourself and others is the first step to an authentic life is the motto she lives by. You can find her on Facebook, Twitter and YouTube.
Image courtesy of Olya Kobruseva.
