Since I was a little girl I have wanted children. I loved playing house and had a collection of dolls that I mothered. By this point in my life I thought I’d absolutely have kids of my own . . . But I don’t. I have felt the longing for them, especially when my friends and younger sister gave birth and I witnessed them stepping into Motherhood. Along with all of the joy that brought me, it also brought up some feelings of sadness and thoughts like, “Will I ever have the experience of being a mom?” The more I thought those kinds of thoughts, which were creating the sadness, the more the longing became an ache that really hurt.
Until one day it finally stopped hurting. And NOT because I met the man of my dreams, got pregnant and became a mother. It was because I had an “aha” moment after an extremely powerful session with a client. As she was sharing about a huge shift she had, I was aware of how overcome I was in that moment with love. My heart felt so full. It finally dawned on me that I do “mother” already. Not in the sense of raising children of my own, but rather by offering my clients feedback, support, nurturing, encouragement, guidance and most of all unconditional love. The longing for what I did not have went away because I started to pay attention and allow myself to fully take in and experience what I do have. I began to understand that the essence of Motherhood is far more impactful than the form it takes.
If there is something in your life that you want, you may be so fixated on looking for it in a form you expect it to be in that you are not seeing how you actually have what you want already!
We create stories around how what we want is supposed to look like. Then we become attached to that story and we create all kinds of rules around how things are supposed to show up in order to feel fulfilled. Your stories about how things “should” look are creating tunnel vision and blind spots in your life – and unnecessary suffering!!!
I invite you to do an exercise to support you in really getting this distinction. Take a moment and look around the room you are in and notice everything that is blue. Really look for all shades of blue and create a mental list of the things you see. Maybe the sky through your window, a shade of blue on a pillow, the color blue in a painting, and so on. Great job! Now after you read the next question it is very important to close your eyes immediately after you read it. No cheating! Here is the question: can you mentally list all the things in the room/space you are in that are or contain the color brown? When you’re done, open your eyes and come back to reading.
Now look around and see how much brown is in the room that you did not remember initially seeing. You didn’t notice all of these brown things because you were so fixated on looking for the blue. And all those blue things you are obsessed with finding or having are making you blue!
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Look around! Instead of aching for a romantic relationship, savor the relationships you already have. See your incredible friendships, relationships with mentors, colleagues and community that are filled with love. Instead of longing for a career that you are passionate about, look at the things in your life that are lighting you up right now. There are other ways in which you are sharing your gifts with the world that may not be taking the form of a job. Instead of obsessing about needing more money, invest your energy in observing the ways that you are already abundant. If you are aching for children of your own, look at all the ways you currently mother or father others.
There are infinite possibilities of ways your dreams are coming true right now!
I encourage you to ask yourself what fantasies you have conjured up about what your life is “supposed” to look like. If your life is not matching this picture you created sometime in the past, it is time to update your story and truly recognize the gifts of the present.
Let go of your attachment to the form. Stubborn hearts get broken more often – and take longer to heal. Stop being so convinced that unless something unfolds in a certain way, you will not be able to experience your heartfelt desires. Trust your longings, but don’t always trust what your mind does with them! Look around and see how the Universe is abundantly presenting you with opportunities to express and experience your inner most desires.
Your dreams are ALREADY coming true; open your eyes to see them and open your heart to receive them.
Christine Hassler has broken down the complex and overwhelming experience of recovering from disappointment into a step-by-step treatment plan in her new book Expectation Hangover. This book reveals the formula for how to process disappointment on the emotional, mental, physical, and spiritual levels to immediately ease suffering. Instead of wallowing in regret, self-recrimination, or anger, we can see these experiences as catalysts for profound transformation and doorways that open to possibility. You can find more info on her website, and follow her on Twitter and FB.
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